When I was 12 years old, I had this neighbor that always told my parents when I misbehaved behind their backs. I hated that neighbor so much, and wanted my revenge. So, I started putting bags of dog poop in his mailbox. I did it for 3 weeks until finally, I decided to do something more extravagant. I attempted to put dog poop in his mailbox then setting it on fire while it was in there. The fire burned his mailbox down. When asked about it, I said I seen some kid from down the street do it. I'm 24 and I still have never told anyone that it was actually me who did it.
My confession is this, that my sister and I are strangers to each other. That sounds unbelievably brutal, but the reasons are manifold. It's because of this: since childhood, we have not been able to get along with each other for shit. Although several attempts to become closer came from my side, I tried, I bent over backwards, she gave nothing back, it just became worse. We finally grew up and each went our separate ways. At family parties we remained civil with each other, but she never managed to hide her obvious loathing. Perhaps it was because I had friends, was good at school, a really nice child (without wanting to big myself up too much) she was none of those. But nothing helped, she never opened herself up to me and I avowed myself the culprit for a long time. That means, I thought I was perhaps too arrogant, not understanding enough, too much in my own world. One day she rang me up and declared that she was coming to visit. I was nervous, since such communication was exceptional. But I was looking forward to it, I thought this is the moment when we will finally sit down together as adults and be able to end this madness.
However I had not counted on the chaos that she would leave behind, which I have been reeling from for a long time. She was moving in with me. She had lost her job, again. She then completely ignored me and slowly but surely started to stir up people in my friendship group against me. God knows she isn't stupid. She befriended them, told them what a cruel child I had been, how after the death of our father I was completely uninterested in the family tragedy, how I was this, that and the other. I noticed that some friends were looking at my funny, but I didn't think anything of it. At a Christmas party it became apparent to me that her dislike of me had taken on a completely new form: she kissed my boyfriend, I caught them in the act, she had probably also planned that. You all surely think I flipped out upon finding that, to my horror, my own sister was my enemy. Not at all. I even felt relief. It was made clear to me: all the years that I blamed myself, put the responsibility on myself for our destroyed relationship, are gone. In that moment I was freed from all feelings of guilt, I finally accepted that just because we are sisters doesn't mean we must be friends. I also felt sorry for her because she put the blame on me for her chaotic life and thought that if she took my friends, kissed my boyfriend and left me in chaos, that it would make something better. I also said it like that to her; she left without a word. Don't get me wrong, I don't hate her. I would like to be friends with her one day perhaps, but she must make the first move. I have finally sorted out the chaos she left behind her. But more importantly to me: just because the same blood flows in our veins, does not mean that I must carry this cross, nor that I should carry guilt around. It is very sad, but I feel free, and I will live my life without her.
I (m/25) graduated a few months ago and thus I began the big application process began for me. The cover letter is now called the letter of motivation, and naturally "Why do you really want to work for this company?" Obviously because it has been my dream since childhood to be able work for the leading producer of Velcro straps. This example was plucked out of thin air but I hope you all get my drift. Unfortunately this kind of fuss pervades in all companies. Of course as a businessman I wouldn't want to have any old idiot in the company and an appropriate cover letter should be a prerequisite, but sadly some personnel and department leaders are delusional. Here is an extract from a medium sized company, more of a monologue and an homage to the department manager, how great he and his department are. It started when he told me about his work for 30 minutes, how awesome he is, everything that he's achieved, that his department prepares reports directly for the board and so they were basically organised directly under the management (according to his point of view then the secretary must be the acting CEO). After a long 30 minutes came the first question: "Have you applied to other companies?" After an affirmative answer he clicked shut his notebook and said that we could end the conversation at this point, because I apparently lacked motivation. I then answered in a friendly tone that we were living in the 20th century and I would be exceptionally stupid to put my future in the hands of one company for whom I was just an anonymous applicant, often enough you just receive a letter of refusal.
I was ultimately invited to a second interview, but I refused, because I have no interest in working for such egomaniacs. Unfortunately it happens in many companies. In the end I took a post in a big consulting firm, where the partner in the interview actually just spoke about the content of my studies, what I expected at work and made a bit of small talk about hobbies. To sum up the application process, I would have preferably just written in my covering letter and said during the job interview that I am a reliable applicant, who works hard for good pay, and who doesn't care whether he is working for a car company or a dog food producer. Sadly I wasn't brave enough which I really regret. If I am ever in charge of personnel and somebody like that applies, that person would be 90% certain to get the job. Oh well, I have a lot of fun at my job, I get on well with my colleagues and I still maintain that the motivation to work has much more to do with the working atmosphere than with the name and the appearance of the company.
Some of the things are sins like self harm, and not forgiving, but not much of it. I'm a teenage girl and I feel like I'd be better off dead. In the previous school I attended,I was bullied and now I'm at big school and my life has gotten worse. I found a new friend and she said stuff behind my back and made stuff up about me. My best friend joined in with her but I didn't find out until a month later. I had no friends. I self harm and have since I was 12. I told my one friend and she and others have told each other. I have no idea how many people know. I feel alone and unwanted even though I've met some new people from school but I still feel alone and as if they pity me. I'm the one everyone tells their secrets to. I have their weight and my own on my back, in which every day it gets heavier. I have the symptoms of depression too but only I know and you guys who actually listened. Sorry if any of this doesn't make sense, I don't ether. I wish I could forgive them but its too hard.
I confess that I (w, 22) regularly go to demonstrations against gay marriage with my best friends just so that we can place ourselves in front of the demonstrators and kiss. In fact neither of us are lesbians but it is just too funny to watch the faces of the people demonstrating. Besides, it's ludicrous that marriage between same-sex partners still isn't allowed.