I don't like my life. I don't like myself. I am an insensitive asshole. I have always lied to and cheated on my loved ones. And when they love me back in blissful ignorance of my deeds, I feel like dying. My lover, I love her. More than anything in the world. But I have committed a sin. my ex considered me as her best friend. She was leaving the city, so she said she wanted to meet me for the last time. I met her. She hugged me. I hugged her back. She kissed me. I kissed her back. We engaged in a liplock. I even touched her breasts. After that I felt very very guilty, but she said "itâs okay between best friends."
I should have never done this. All the virtues and values I held dear to myself were just lies.
And my lover, she loves me like anything. And I love her back. But with a heart torn by guilt.
I never will cheat on her I swear. Just wanted to let everyone know that I am not a bad person now.
Forgive me please. I just need a word, and then I will live my life again.
Posted on 19.02.2013, 11:56:02 CET