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Drug Addict (00000142)
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I'm 16 years old. I have a serious dependency on prescription pain medication. I've been addicted to Oxycontin since late 2010, when my grandmother and only confidant died of lung cancer. Since she had terminal cancer, she was prescribed large doses of narcotics. I happened to stumble across the leftovers about a week after she passed. I figured that I would just take the pills as an escape and then stop, with no nasty after-effects. At that point, I was depressed and hardly ate anything or slept. I took one of the pills, crushed it, and snorted it. The rush I got was like nothing I've ever felt before, and the next day, I did it again. In about a month, I used up all of the pills and got slight withdrawal pains, and I knew that I needed to find more unless I wanted to get sick. I found a drug dealer who got me the pills for fairly cheap, only $15 a pill, and I bought about $200 worth, which was all that I'd saved up over the past few months. I snorted them or crushed them and put them in my coffee, and I continue to do so. I leave class once or twice a day to go to the bathroom and do drugs. I've gone to school high on numerous occasions, but was never caught. Surprisingly, I've managed to keep this a secret for 2 years, and neither my mother (my parents are divorced) nor any of my friends suspect a thing. However, lately, I feel as if I've hit rock bottom. I've done things I'm not proud of. I went rummaging through a dumpster to find drugs when I ran out of money. I've stolen money from good friends, even though they've never suspected it was me. I slept with a pharmacist for his drugs. A great strain has been placed on my relationship with my mom. And as if none of that was enough, I feel that my grandmother is watching me slowly kill myself. That hurts worse than any of the other things. I just feel that she would be so utterly ashamed of me, and it makes me feel even worse about what I'm doing. It's not as if I've never tried to get sober; I've tried many times, but I end up getting sick and feel like I'm dying. I can't go to detox or rehab without my mother knowing about it. What would I tell her, that I'm going on an extended vacation to Disneyland? My personal best is 5 days drug free, and those were the worst 5 days of my life, let me tell you. I've never told anyone about this aside from the pharmacist I slept with, who could have given a shit either way. I don't know how I became such a monster. I need help, I really do, but I don't want to tell my mother about this. I doubt she'd ever trust or look at me the same way ever again. This is eating away at me, and I feel like I'm not in control of my life, and I'm just a marionette with someone else pulling the strings. I feel like I'm watching from the sidelines, and not all the way there. It's terrible. I feel somewhat better about telling you all this, but I know I can't be completely free until I get professional help. If nothing else, let this be a cautionary tale. I know you've probably all heard, "Don't do drugs" so often that it seems corny, but remember this story when you're thinking about doing something. Don't waste your life away for a short high. When you come down, you feel worse than you did before, and it's not worth it. If you pray, I ask you to pray for me, please. If you don't pray, please keep me in your thoughts. I hope through all this that I can come out on the other side a better person. I know I've got to stop, or this'll kill me. I'll overdose or worse. My grandmother came from a long line of drug addicts. I'm not talking the occasional joint drug addict either. I'm talking pump-your-stomach die-in-your-sleep drug addicts, and I feel that I am disappointing her so greatly. And for the 5 days I was sober, I wasn't even doing it for me. I was doing it for her. My inspiration to stop is my grandmother, and I hope that will be enough to get me out.

Posted on 20.04.2012, 11:45:23 CET
Place: California
Piercing the Condoms (00000138)
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2.9/5 (144 Votes)
I pierced my ex-boyfriend's condoms after [...]
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Posted on 11.01.2012, 22:58:36 CET
Place: Gracani, Zagreb, Croatia
Wayward Boyfriend (00000131)
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I've been in a relationship with my boyfriend for almost four months. It will be four months in just five days. I have had my female best friend for two years, and she has recently gotten close to my boyfriend too. Last night, when I was chatting with another friend, the ex boyfriend of my female best friend, he told me that my boyfriend was telling him that that he's been talking to my best friend. My boyfriend sounds and looks like he's flirting with my best friend, just like my friend told me. I messaged my boyfriend, and I told him if he doesn't want me anymore, then fck him. I told him that I'd rather he just break up with me rather than cheating on me. And tomorrow, I'll see my boyfriend and I'll slap him and my best friend in the face so hard.

Posted on 02.11.2011, 04:51:45 CET
Place: Olongapo City, Philippines.
Digital Revenge (00000121)
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2.7/5 (86 Votes)
My boyfriend was cheating on me with my best friend. When I found out, I hacked her phone and sent a message to his whole family containing a dirty picture he had sent me. To this day he thinks that my ex-best-friend did it.

Posted on 06.08.2011, 22:09:15 CET


Collect Them All (00000120)
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2.6/5 (211 Votes)
In 4th grade the new craze were these little "the dog" stuffed animals from McDonalds. I would beg for my mom to take me to McDonalds to try and collect as many as I could. One day this girl in one of my classes, who I thought was crazy, had the toy I had been after, a German Shepard. I befriended her and played her dumb little games while hiding my hatred for her. She then traded me the toy for a different one. After the deed was done, I stopped playing with her and ignored her. This angered her, and she complained to the teacher saying that she wanted her toy back. The teacher proclaimed it a fair trade, and I was off the hook. I regret nothing. I did, however, go to great lengths to steal one of these toys from my handicapped cousin. I'm just thankful I didn't get caught. I was not so lucky a few months ago when I was caught shoplifting. I only regret it because I got caught.

Posted on 01.08.2011, 07:18:29 CET
Place: Texas, USA

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