I'm (f) 13, and I masturbate uncontrollably. I can't control it. I've figured out how to have something in my vagina and my ass at the same time. I once ripped my hole and bleed all over the sheets. My mom thinks I had my period, but nope, I was up at 1 am using makeshift dildos, as I do every night. If I don't I can't sleep and the next day I get turned on over every little thing.
I did something terrible. I cut my wrists, I hate my life, and it needed to happen. And I think I'm bisexual which is a disgrace to God.
Dear Mom and Dad,
I'm sorry but I have to say this.
I'm suicidal and bisexual.
Please understand me I didn't want it but, its who I am.
I have to make a super-embarrassing confession here. One morning, my girlfriend and I wake up in bed in her parents' apartment. After a quick trip into the kitchen for water, she ventures: "Looks like both my parents are at work, what do you say let's do it?" Of course, we left the bedroom door open and really started banging away. It bears mentioning in this regard that my girlfriend can get pretty loud when we get physical in which I join her with rank abandon. After a while (we of course had tuned out everything as we went at it) we suddenly hear clearly quite a bit of noise being made in the kitchen. We both stifled it and lay there quiet as church mice, since someone apparently was home after all! It should be added that in the apartment you can see when someone goes from the living room through the hall into the kitchen and of course, vice versa! After lying still for ten minutes, I suddenly see out of the corner of my eye as my girlfriend's father tries to tiptoe unnoticed into the living room. The poor man had to listen for a good, long time, which must have seemed like an eternity to him, to me taking care of his daughter. The whole thing was so embarrassing that I couldn't look him straight in the eyes for a couple of weeks, and neither could he.
I usually lose my temper. I don't like people and don't like to talk to them. I prefer to be alone. I get jealous when I see people with more beauty and money. I long for love. I've been masturbating since at the age of 9. Before, I didn't know what I was doing at first, but I can understand what I was doing that I have lied to my parents. I am a very lazy person. For many times I felt like someone is sucking the complete life out of me. I can't do any work properly. I beat my parents, sister and scold very badly. Completely I hate myself now . Many people betrayed me in the past too. It's pay back time.